Dugaan sebelum Terbang

Warning: 
Entry ni entry luahan perasaan yang tidak memberangsangkan. Sila jangan teruskan bacaan kalau anda jenis yang tak dapat terima manusia mempunyai pelbagai up & down dalam hidup dia dan ada perasaan gembira, seronok, sedih, marah, teruja dan pelbagai jenis rasa lagi. As aii embrace the fact that I'm a non-perfect human being with all those feelings, I'll proceed with this entry. As for those yang expect perfect person baik sopan santun membuta tuli biar orang pijak kepala dia  24/7/365 you may choose not to read further.. Jangan cakap ahkak tak payung hokey.....


Assalamualaikum semua....

Apa khabar semua readers?


Hari ni 3/3/2016. Ada exactly 6 hari lagi sebelum we fly to Hong Kong. Berbulan2 excited, menyiapkan itineraries, prepare A, B, C, D, E.. tup tup tinggal 6 hari lagi myself boleh takdak mood!!

Nak buka beg, nak packing pun tak de hati.. Persiapan 90% siap la.. ada dalam 10% jer yang belum siap... tapi 10% tu yang buat myself panas hati terbang segala mood... myself blank!

Part of it sebab myself bertelingkah dengan MDH! Punca bertelingkah? As usual start bergaduh sebab Cabokkkkkkkkk tu takmau bangun tidur!!!!!! Allah saja yang tau betapa bertahun2 myself menanggung rasa menjeruk perasaan bila nak kejut MDH bangun. Dia akan tidur sampai tghari, kalau myself kejut untuk buat apa2 dia akan liat serupa mayat!!! Bila dah macam tu, masa terbuang sia2.. Banyak perkara yang boleh di buat terbengkalai.... membazir masa... ayat kliche dia, NANTI LAH DULU.... ataupun ... BUAT MACAM MANA YANGGGGG >>>>>>  tarik panjang2 sikit yer....

Dari bertelingkah bangun tidur tu meleret2 sampai bertelingkah X,Y,Z... apa X,Y,Z tu?? Biar lah rahsia...

Dan akibatnya, myself terus hilang mood nak buat segala benda...! Parah!!

Dalam bertelingkah tak habis lagi, MDH pergi Labuan pulak! Myself dah la nak kena buat macam2 dah akhir2 ni, nak kena beli itu ini persiapan2 yg belum ready, MDH lari ke Labuan pulak!! Balik dari Labuan direct terus ke Melaka sampai 7 hb, dan 8hb malam kitorang dah kena ada dekat airport untuk fly subuh2 9hb! Seee.... myself terkontang kanting!!


Kalau dah terkontang kanting duit tinggal, semua siapkan tak apa la jugak! Ini... nan hado! Duit untuk travel masih ada yang dia belum bagi. Actually, dia dah bagi duit utk travel tapi lepas kira2 ada tambahan sikit yang kena tambah, and dia tak bagi lagi sebab company dia bayar gaji main2!! (Hambik kau Cinta, kekonon nak berjalan tapi miskin!)

Myself nak dulukan? Tak larat dah kot... dah beribu-ribu lemon dulukan duit untuk dia selama ni tak sempat berbayar pun! Yang sebenar, myself pun miskin...

MDH ada tanya myself nak ikut dia ke Labuan tak? Ajakan dia tu macam bersungguh. 2-3 kali jugak dia tanya. Labuan tu ada kenangan2 kitorang kat sana. Dua kali sbelum ni memnag aii ada ikut dia ke Labuan. Tapi gila, lagi seminggu nak fly, duit pun tak cukup ko nak ajak aku gi Labuan carik jadah apa?! Bukan nya ada company tok nenek kau nak bayarkan flight, makan minum aku kat sana!! Lagipun the true reason ko ajak aku gi sana sebab ko tanak terkontang kanting sorang2 as if i don't know. So kerja kau, kau sendirik la settle! Sebelum2 ni bila aku ikut kau sana sini, tolong kerja kau apa balasan kau????!!! Aku takkan lupa ayat "A***h GALAK NAK IKUT!!!". Lagi satu lepas gi Pengkalan Balak tolong kau kat sana tanpa bayaran sesen pun kau ingat macam mana kau layan aku?? Sendiri mau hingat okey!!! Aku dah pasakkan dalam hati aku kuat2, kerja kau lepas2 ni kau sendirik settle! Aku dah tak kuasa!!


Okeh, settle part tu...

Part lain, kereta tak hidup! aiiyak! dah la nak kena buat macam2, kereta tak hidup pulak... so, lagi la tak boleh buat apa...

10% yang tak siap tu buatkan entry Persiapan Travel ke Hong Kong & China aii melekat (stuck) hehehehehe.... and aii hate it bila ada benda yang boleh siap tapi tak boleh siap sebab perkara remeh temeh ni.. So Cinta, embrace yourself... I'm gonna pick up myself, pergi kedai, get those items yang tak dapat lagi and settle one by one...

Fuh, lega rasa dapat meluahkan yang terjeruk ni... Toksah telan la, tak sedap masam...

Hidup bersuami isteri ni memang banyak dugaan. Selalu orang cakap give & take, tapi kadang2 penat la bertahun2 macam ni....

Sebelum kahwin, tak terbayangkan dugaan berumah tangga ni macam mana... Bila dah lalui, terpaksa telan apa jua yang datang... Jodoh ni memang la orang kata dah di tentukan di Luh Mahfuz lagi, tapi sebenarnya pilihan ada jugak di tangan sendiri kan? Tapi, takkan la sebab sikit2 masalah nak bercerai, sikit2 masalah nak bercerai.. Ingat! Talak tu ada 3 kali jer.... jangan nanti menangis air mata darah bila nasi dah jadi bubur banyak sangat taruk air mata

Apa yang perlu kita buat bila orang yang kita kahwini tu tak seperti yang kita bayangkan?

Yup, you'll never know.... walaupun bercinta macam nak rak 10 tahun pun, takkan sama dengan apa yang di kenali setelah tidur sebantal makan sepinggan mandi sebilik air.. (ops, kitorang seperate bilik air tau.. bilik air sendiri2 punya.... kenapa? meh ikat tepi kalau nak tau)

My answer, keep learning... belajar tentang your partner... and jangan lupa the MOST IMPORTANT is belajar tentang diri sendiri... kenali diri sendiri... embrace yourself and love yourself first... no one can force you to do something you're uncomfortable with.. and believe me, putting yourself first will half settle everything... the other half, leave it to your Creator... He'll knows what best.. Last, never compare your life to other person, they might be riding the same track but different coach. So love what you're living, love your own stories, embrace your own happiness... 

After all, dunia ni tiada apa selain perhiasan semata-mata... dan akhirat itu lebih baik bagi yang mengetahui...

Till then, i'll try to keep calm and happily swimming... errkkk... 

** update **

Hari ni 4/3/2016.. Semalam MDH dah balik dari KK. Flight pukul 8 sampai pukul 10 dekat KLIA. Normal time nak check out gedebak gedebuk lebih kurang + travel time 1 hour - 1 1/2 hour. Bagi la 2 jam katakan, normal sampai la pukul 12 mlm kat rumah kan?

But MDH being MDH, pukul 2 pagi dia sampai kat rumah... Kata nya pi makan sekali, hmmm..... no comment... Pagi2 buta pukul 4 MDH dah kena ke Melaka pulak...

Kereta aii kan tak hidup dia cakap dia akan jumper kan kereta tapi dah sampai pukul 2 pagi?? Aii is bolayan jer... nasib badan la..

Balik tu MDH try to talk me out to call Mechanic esok nya (hari ni la...), but aii cakap susah aii saja nak cari mechanic bagai... mana aii tau benda2 camtu.. dia cakap nanti dia call kan.. aii cakap tanak.. titik.

So, he sigh....

And he went down...

Jump start my car, bring it to Petronas, refill tank and even bought extra petrol for my scooter (which is also having some problem if the petrol is low).

And he gaves me the money I ask and extra for me to purchase things.

And he bought me Nasi Goreng Ayam although i've already taken my dinner (which i eventually ate at 3 am in the morning)..

And he cuddle me and put me to sleep before left for Melaka at 4.30 am.. and i did shed some tears when he left...

So, i've forgiven him. After all, he's my husband & I'm gratefull to have him as my spouse, my other half, soul mate & friend.

Somehow I know the madness I had on him caused by broken communication. We had a fight, from one fight to another, and while that is not settle yet, he left and I felt neglected and left in lurch so to avenge I ignore him.. 964 miles away...

In case anybody wonders, I did asked him last night, why on earth did you accept such ridiculous task straight from Labuan & KK to Melaka non-rest?

He answered, no one else around.. just like that..

By the way, he told me, the job will settle on Sunday and not on Monday as I thought. Since we're going to Airport on Tuesday night, I hope he can have little rest on Monday itself. 

Otherwise, a tired travel companions make a grumpy trip ahead.. . and I don't want that..

Oh Allah, bless my husband... gives him abundance sustenance for the sacrifices that he made for us... Ease him on his journey and task... Made smooth everything for him.. Make him not forgetting you while working... Ameen...

With that, I have to settle the rest of our upcoming trip preparation all by myself.. Sobs...   

Yesterday, after my short swimming session to ease my mind, I've successfully grab myself back. I've finally check in our flights, even add some meals, contact Sam from AirBNB to reconfirm the location to our stay, eventually bind my travel guide booklet, purchase the international power adapter which i've been eyeing for 2 months (I know.. don't asked)  and some cable tie.. 

And now i'm preparing some Plan B adjustment to our itineraries... Just found out there will be Hong Kong Flower Show 2016 while we were there... yippeeee!! 

It's Spring now in Hong Kong... weather forecast are not so heaty, night might be cooler BUT today found out that there is HAZE in Hong Kong, Guangzhou & Shenzhen!!

I've tried googling to find out the cause as few days earlier it was clear but yet to find news reporting haze today in Hong Kong..

Pray hard that some rain will wash it away! Its only 5 days before our trip... and should the haze not going away, we'll be devastated!

** update **

4.30 pm

Check weather Hong Kong & Shenzhen dah clear.. Langit Biru sebiru-birunya! Yippeee !

Until now i don't know what caused the haze.. google2 cari tak jugak jumpa. Tengok langit dah clear tu ok lah..

Guangzhou? Belum lagi dok kelabu hasap gituh la...

Nampak nya angin bertiup dari bawah ke utara... angin dari laut la tu... dah tolak jerebu2 dari Hong Kong naik ke Shenzhen dan sekarang ni jerebu tu dekat Guangzhou...

** update **

 5.30 pm

Yeay!!

Guangzhou pun dah clear... Harap la sangat jangan la dok jerebu apa bagai lagi... orang nak jalan nih, macam mana nak bernafas nanti...